Must blog Ruby

 

She's just far too cute, I had to post this one. Jared thought I posed her, but she had just fallen asleep like she's done the past few days exhausted from playing with her toys.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sweet and savory...

Cooking some pork chops for dinner tonight (thanks Tiffany) And I baked a pumpkin pie last night for Jared. Yesterday I also made some fudge for the first time. I had the ingredients and had it on my mind to try it. It wasn't bad. Really soft. I know it's time to stop the holiday treats and move on to fitness and the New Year. I'm just a little behind. Santa did bring our family the Wii Fit so we've been excer-playing more than usual. It's a fun thing. Back to baking, I made some chocolate chip cookies today. I was going to make Oatmeal Raisin cookies, Jared will only eat the oatmeal with chocolate chips, and my oatmeal somehow got thrown out. Any how I've been feeling quite the suzy Homemaker I suppose. I've also been sewing a bunch. I've made Lindsay, Jack, and Duncan all large pillow spiders. I'm working on a product base to start up a home base business. We've got some good leads on where to begin. Now it's not getting bogged down with the fact that I don't have a name for the business. Any idea's or input will be more than welcome. We had some idea's, they were already taken. I may put up a poll once I have better idea's. The business is going to be making stuffed animals/creatures, cards, and jewelry. Maybe morphing into a mural business as well. The focus is on handmade items. The names we've considered currently are: Lisa Q Creations, The Q Creation, LLQ inc., Frog Yi (Yi is Chinese for art), or Green Frog. I can't believe I'm letting myself get discouraged over a name. I had less trouble naming my children. Any how, I hope everyone had a safe and happy Christmas! Have a healthy and wonderful New Year.

What to do, what to do...

The stress level is nearly tipping the scale to far to bear. The little things are seeming like big. And it's far too easy to send me into a panic attack. I take deep breaths and try to tell myself it won't take long for things to pass and there are better days ahead. But I also am painfully aware of things that lie ahead. It's not easier, it's more difficult.

My mom is the beginning. She had been having pain in her leg and could bearly walk. Her jaw and lip have been numb and she began loosing a pound a day, not being able to eat. Not the healthy way to loose some weight. Plus she knew something was wrong. She said she felt like she had cancer still. And she does. Bone cancer in the femur. She also has a tumor in her jaw. She has been undergoing radiation again. Centralized to those two areas, but she "lit up like a Christmas tree" when they did one of her many scans. So, I'm not sure what treatments or other tests are ahead for her. But we pray for her and love her.

Jack cracked his head open, requiring three visible stitches. It was deep. That happened in the parking lot trying to go to the dentist. He had a return visit only to find out that he has 5 cavities, at that return visit to fill them, lightly sedated he still wouldn't have anything to do with it and fought madly. Enough to he's rescheduled to go to Primary Children's and be completely sedated.

We also had to take Jack to the Peditrician because his school can't control his behavior. We were referred to a children's center only to find out that they don't accept patients over the age of 5. We were referred out again to another medical center linked to the U, but they said that they don't diagnose, just treat. We'll have to see someone who can diagnose the problem. Whatever it is, I'm sure it's mild. We were told possible autism (I don't believe that's what it is) ADHD (more plausible) or asburgers (spelling is mostlikely wrong.. don't think it's that either) I don't want to self diagnose, but this is just what we're dealing with currently.

Monday through thursday we had one or more doctors appointments per day. I still have to go back to get Jacks stitches removed, Duncan's teacher informed me that Duncan claims he can't see the board. Jack lost his new pair of glasses and purposely broke his old one's.

I'm with the kids 24-7 in a secluded small town, I used to occasionally text Jared when it got to be too much. Now he's working extreme over time and his phone won't hold a charge. He worked from 7 am to 2 am yesterday through today. And went back in 7 am this morning and will repeat through to the AM again.

I didn't know he'd be working O.T. yesterday and picked that particular day to cook the turkey dinner. He thought he'd be here tonight for dinner, so I heated the leftovers, no show. Maybe at 8pm tonight for a quick dinner. Who knows. I tease him and say he's cheating on me with Wally. (He doesn't like that, it's been awhile since I've said that.)

Then there's fighting Duncan to get into the tub. His allergist says she sometimes prescribes three baths per day for her patients. Oh my that would be impossible for us.

There is more. I've developed an eye twitch. It happens most often when i'm upset it's mostly just annoying. But it's telling me that i'm stressed. I am limited on my outlets. I would rant more about everything that's happening, but then everyone would think that I only am able to focus on the negative. There are some possitives happening now.

Duncan loves his teacher and he's funny. Duncan moved up a level finally!!! Yay Duncan. The teacher definately makes a difference. Duncan's teacher told me that he feels that Duncan finally has got how things are supposed to work and is making real progress. He's always been the most polite out of the kids.

I've been in a bit of a festive mood to make treats and things. I made a hybrid cookie dessert of my grandma's Raisin prune filled, Dad said it was good... We'll just take his word for it. Pumpkin pie for Jared and Earlier in the month cheese cake for his birthday. Chocolate chip cookies from scratch. And of course sugar cookies. Now I want to make fudge and possibly some kind of toffee. I think I'm putting off finishing the front room though with my crafts and cooking.

I have a long Daddy do list, so if he can accomplish some of the things on the list, that may help. But with all this working it doesn't look so promising. Sigh. I don't want to wash the dog. Maybe I'll check into how expensive it is to take her in and get a professional cleaning. Then I won't want her to go outside, we need a dog run.

This is getting much more random, so I'll end it now. We're hanging in there. A bit stressed, but doing okay. I hope everyone is having a less stressed or at least festive holiday season!

 

We were out to more doctors yesterday. We went to Lindsay's ENT for a follow-up to make sure the bump on her neck is nothing. It swells when she's upset and has a strange enough look to it that the Ped recommended going back to the ENT. It's nothing. He said she has no fat right where the problem is, and there's probably a superficial atery that is suppling the blood that makes it swell and look bad when she's upset. Thank goodness.

Then we were going to go right to the dentist, for a routine cleaning and check up for Jack and Lindsay. We made it as far as the parking lot. I got out of the van to get the kids out. When I opened the back door, Jack had climbed over the back seat. He had fallen fast and hard. Because suddenly he was right in front of me on the floor, bleeding. He had hit his head on the 25# weight that we'd placed on the base of our pencil tree to keep it from getting knocked over. It just happened to be in the back of the van. It cracked his head open, so we drove across the street to the ER. An hour later he had stitches and Jared was relieved to be going home. He didn't much care for the scrutiny they place you under when you come in with an injured child. The case worker, the police man, the repeating what happened 6 or more times. I was in the van waiting for them with the girls, because Ruby needed to eat. It didn't help Jared's comfort level that every question directed at Jack, he only answered, "I don't know"... What's your name, did someone hit you, did you fall; And the like. Any way, I'd post a picture of the stiches, but he's not that willing. Grrrrr. I wish I knew why we're so attracted to the medical world. I'd prevent it if I could.

 

32! HAPPY BIRTHDAY JARED

 

THANKSGIVING 2008

Well that was fun! NOT.

I truly messed up my blog. We'd done quite well I thought. I tried to revamp it without the needed knowledge to do it right and got myself into trouble. I guess I'm not very patient. Needless to say I have to start from scratch and have lost all my old post's. I restarted everything to protect the site and be smarter (hopefully that's possible.) Not that many people came to check on it any how. But here it is again, yay? HAPPY THANKSGIVING!